Your tired words are all the same. And I would walk-- you know I'd surely walk away-- if I wasn't such a sucker for you.

I love you. Always have, always will.

Today, the urge of running away and escaping is overwhelming.

For some reason the other night i dug up the old blog and started ruffling through all the posts i made from 2 years ago. That was the eugene then, before the trials of army, before the metamorphic experiences of university, the pure one. The naive one. The one that thought the world was as it is and most importantly he was real. I really miss the person i was.

Now i've degraded. This is the eugene now, after experiencing a little more of life. The cynical one, the closed one, the heartbreaker. The coward who runs away.

My pickup lines. I decided to test their effectiveness on the grouch (see above).

"Hi grouch. Would you like a raisin?"
"NO!"
"Oh..how about a date?"

Outcome: Rolling eyes.

"hi grouch. How much do you weigh?"
"WHY!"
"oh because i want to pick you up"

Ps. I never got to the punch line. She punched me right after the WHY.

"Hi grouch. Are you greek?"
"no..why?"
"i thought all goddesses were greek."

Outcome: Finally! a smile!


"hi grouch. Are you tired?"
"not really.."
"oh you must be..you've been running through my mind alot"

success!

"Grouch! i need a map."
"why don't be stupid"
"i think i got lost in your eyes"

okay i admit that was bad. running out. i gave up there. haha

University applications. They were more complicated than i thought. I was half expecting the easy 1-2-3, click of a mouse button styled application we had at the O levels. Ever since young i was never inclined in the area of academics which is why i never saw the need to research on carreer prospects, course nature etc. I always did barely enough to bring me to the next stage which sadly means, i never had the liberty to go or do what i wanted. But now, i have a little of that and the decision is tough as ever.
I hope to put great thought into the matter unlike my friend Chew Yin Xiang, whose sole reason for applying to SMU is so he can zao geng the entire female population and stare at jolene wee's legs. Sigh I'll leave the weighing for another time. I have till the end of the month.