the eleventh hour quickly passes me byyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

Feeling sick today...think i've been infected with that disease. One revelation i got today : why do we drink?
well people say its fun and stuff but still.....if u start to ask yourself deeper questions like why...and why. It'll amount up to nothing. It dosen't do us any good...and because everyone else does it is not a good enough reason to do it. I know it sounds wierd coming from me , but cut me some slack here..think about it. Its not wrong or anything but if its not beneficial , then why do it ? Just some of my thoghts today since i spent most of the time on the bed.
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I'm afraid of what is to come - this new chapter of my life that starts on monday. I'm afraid i won't be able to fit in in the new environment and people won't accept me for who i am. Afraid that my idiosyncrasies or shall i say, peculiar mannerisms won't get me a place in people's books. Somehow, they all have this convulated line of who's in and who's out and the path to do silly things in order to be "in" , can be rather alluring. But there are some extenuating circumstances where that path must be taken and i'm afraid of that. i know i'm not strong enough and i foresee myself joing the entourage of students following some masked trend. A trend that makes wrong seem right. A trend that makes wrong a norm and inorder to not be outcasted, we have to do what everyone else does.
i sound like some crazy kid, thinking too much and being perturbed by my problems...but what else is there do do when you're staring at the ceiling for hours ?
Just read grace's blog and i realised that she's also quite a physco too. oh well...going back to sleep..

take my world apart