FirstDayOfSchool.
everyone was running around. Saw little smiles today. AC seems a little too fast paced but i guess that's what JC is like - just mindless people scrambling around doing their monotonous routine. My head was begaining to pound when the last few periods came..i vaguely remembered taking down mundane details and points off the last lecture. My classmates are fine..good mix of different personalities. i felt the gregarious side in me showed up today. I guess the thought of me spending the next 9months or so with them gave my mind some reason to do so. History was horrible..want to drop it. For some reason the teacher amplified what was required of history and what we were getting ourselves into..made us all feel like suckers for taking the subject up. And that we were all bound to undergo hell. I wonder why..does nothing but sows seeds of discouragement. oh well..today for once..i found myself not querying myself about life's ambiguities and other profound or petty matters...which is good as most of the time..i find myself arriving at null or mulish conclusions. Sigh..i foresee that it isn't going to be easy and i have loads to catch up..i'm already feeling the encumbrance of my huge debt - my long 'holiday'
and plus the teachers being so quick on critism is not helping. O help me God!