I'm haunted by memories. Memories of times i've messed up ,Of times i've been awful and of times i've made a comeplete fool of myself.It tears me apart to the extent that i lay awake in bed tossing and turning pondering on the inexorable amounts of 'what ifs' jumping over a fence in my dreams. It eats my conscience to think what might have been or what should have been done. So i lay awake in bed all night working through endless calculations just to find out how much of the person i am not.I think about how i should have taken the chance to tell a certain someone something, Or how i should have been a blessing to another.
Things likethe 'blog-worthy-americas-funniest-home-video' stunt i pulled off today. I deliberatly,(now i say deliberatly because it sure wasn accidental. I was merely in a somewhat dream-like state) burnt YinXiang's hair. Yes. I nearly killed him.I fired that old caveman-like bush of his to pieces with a lighter. I'm really really sorry.Well basically, he was taking a nap on the KAP Macs table when i lighted his hair.The spark spreaded like wild fire i swear. Within seconds, a patch of his head was on fire.With cries of 'Oh Fuck!' from Kaiting and Tzehow who began rapidly beating and blowing his head to put put the flames, i stood thereflabbergausted, With the lighter still in my hand, my mouth half open. And within seconds, our table and the one behind usburst out in mirth. With Yinxiang still wondering what the hell happened. He even asked if a fly landed on his head. -_-I nearly died. But soon after..guilt set in. yes yx i'm not some crazy psychopath. I do feel horrible. I really feel bad..i mean the guy's already so traumatised about the curly state of his hair and i had to make it worse.There were even strands left on the table and oh did i mention the smell?! my gosh.
Anyway, i sometimes battle between believing my thoughtsare a recollection rather than memory. As i simply allow myself to sink in and lay in that pit of thorns and never get up.oh well..this is why i have wierd dreams. I don't even have normal thoughts to begin with.and Oh sorry Kaiting. i broke your camera.
Quote: " They look like Timon and Poomba! "
