Inverted
I had trouble sleeping last night. And whenever this happens, I get weird dreams. I dreamt last night, I lost my wallet and it felt horrible because there was a lot of money in it. Anyway, the world I was in din't have cars or buses, we all had to swim. So I swam to this place(the only place which was not flooded)called 'inverted'-I still have no idea why. Well I remember having to swim there because an uncle had a place and I needed somewhere to stay. I walked around this place and noticed everything was so simple. So plain. Houses were just big concrete blocks with windows and a roof. There was only one main road which lead to everything. The people were so clear and open...As if their lives, emotions and everything else were written on their faces.
Vulnerable I might add. Then I woke up. Feeling the exact emotions I felt when I got out of bed yesterday, wishing I could be a part of this imaginary world.

Purpose
When I drift off to sleep, time disappears. I can't remember if the spontaneous walk around town I did to talk to unknown, random people was yesterday or the day before. I missed training today thinking that I had already gone for it. I remember asking myself if I had to get up in the morning or could I sleep and would anyone even know the difference. I remember walking around at midnight stopping by at this empty cafe beside Parklane and chatting with the owners. My recent interest with music from the 70s and 80s paid off...They even had such retro names-Rosie and Charlie. I even remember walking around and realising how purposeless and aimless the youths are. Wondering around, doing the same thing they do every night not knowing what they are living for. The thought that the line between eternal joy and joy that is of temporary value has blurred scared me. I saw them, drifting with the same facial expressions all in the endless pursuit of something called fun. Directionless. Purposeless.
This is bizarre..But that was how I felt when I woke up this morning.

The Darkling Thrush
thrush(thr&sh) noun
1)A contagious disease caused by a fungus, Candida albicans, that occurs most often in infants and children, characterized by small whitish eruptions on the mouth, throat, and tongue, and usually accompanied by fever, colic, and diarrhea.
2)An infection of the frog of a horse's foot, characterized by a foul-smelling discharge and often resulting from unhygienic stall conditions.
3)Any of numerous migratory songbirds of the family Turdidae, usually having brownish upper plumage and a spotted breast and noted for a clear melodious song.

I unfortunately realized what a thrush was only halfway into the essay. The term exams have been disastrous so far with a poem about a thrush coming out for the lit paper...Okay fine it wasn only about the thrush, but I was greatly irritated after completing the piece. And what ticked me off further was how people were going around saying it was an easy piece. Sigh the first words that came out of my mouth when the paper ended was sex. So you can roughly guess the distress I experienced in trying to stretch the essay, pounding my head to come up with more bullshit than what was already written down. Econs today was awful too. The paper was in fact quite doable. I just did not finish it. My brilliant idea of attempting the DRQ first did not pay off. I admit, bad time management on my part. I was only left with 20 minutes to write the essay and me rushing through it resulted in some points being missed out and an essay that was so disorganized, my tutor would be so proud off. History tomorrow. *shrugs. This can't get any worse.

Still Dying Me
Something is really wrong with me. At 3am last night, I woke up with agonizing pains coming from the left side of my stomach. My exciting dream of being in a gang fight was sadly interrupted. Because in the dream, I was stabbed in the stomach. So it took me a while to distinguish if the pain was part of reality. After realizing that I couldn even turn because of the intense pain, I began crying for help(yes. I was screaming). My frantic mother, not knowing what to do, began searching for pills. She found this green pill and it said 'For stomach cramps' in the front. So I just gulped it down and amazingly the pain subsided. I'm praying for the same thing to happen tonight so I can be saved from the dreadful term exams which begin tomorrow.