Complaining is self centeredness. Remind me never to do it.

Yesterday was an eventful day. But all the running around and mini-emergencies that popped up along the way pained me a little. I feel I have the inability to cope with the commonplace that is so extreme it makes even the grandest and loveliest things unbearable.
I woke up at 12. Which brought me into a frenzy as I realised I have an appointment with my psychiatrist at 12.30. Randomly pulling out clothes, my mom comes in and insists that I put on something nicer. In my mind, I was screaming how we don't know anyone there and nobody bloody cares anyway but I was still feeling bad as this whole frantic scene was my fault in the first place. So I pull on jeans and a t-shirt which pleased her so much I almost wanted to change clothes-slipping into the most ahbeng things I could find in my wardrobe except I don't own a pair of slippers so the look would not be complete. Nonetheless, it would irritate her well enough. Rebellion comes so naturally to me nowadays that it is almost senseless. So I leave the house at 12.15 and I start to call Dr Sim to tell her that I'll be late. To my horror, the receptionist picks up and tells me tot ake my time as there was still one more patient in front of me. -_- sigh.
The session went fine and to my delight she agreed to me increasing the dosage of my anti-depressants. I also told her about my plans to get out of the country and she said it would be a good idea. Yay.
I went for a game of basketball after seeing Dr Sim and it was tiring. I felt dizzy half the time and I swear my reflexes were slower, so I stopped after an hour and a half. I just spent the rest of the time observing people and realising how different they were from us. It was like playing a game of photohunt live. Everything was different. The way they dressed, the way they spoke even the things they thought to be cool. Having had a different upbringing, I thought how fast I would die being put in an environment like this. Sigh..I also have a failure of vision. A failure to see the world as it is, to see the good in what it is and only to wonder why the hell things look the way they do and not some other way.
After basketball, an emergency popped up. Ian, Brian and me ended up having to drive to bukit batok as a friend was in trouble ruining ian's family dinner and brian's and my wonderful arcade adventure. We brought her to the hospital and waited there for a couple of hours before heading for supper and home.
After reaching home, I felt so tired and slept without my sleeping pills. Marvelous.

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