Hope
I lay in bed at 3am this morning thinking of everything from pretty ponies to Ashlee Simpson when I received an SMS from Kaiting. Then it occurred to me that I wasn' the only crazy one around who could not sleep at night. That was rather comforting considering the fact that its been the forth lonely night. Company's refreshing. :) I woke up later at 12.45 in a comfortable state of ease. It was like drifting limbo-like among the clouds before my body finally deciding it was time to get up. Checked my phone and was rather pleased that I would have company for the day-that's half the battle won. Those lonely days are dreadful and only leave me in a sheer state of mess after being forced to sleep the entire day off which is so immensely depressing. I also woke up to find that my Fatboy Slim album 'Palookaville' and my anime episodes have completed. What a pirate I am. Sigh this always happens. As bright as the day may seem, I know at the back of my head that the tears will return when night falls. I hate it. Its like God somehow getting my hopes up and thrashing it in the end. Oh well. I'll see how things go. Off to town now.
*fingers crossed

Its been a tough few days even though I'm finally beginning to see results. My new anti-depressants fortunately do not put me in dreamland 24/7 and I'm starting to finish my food. Despite my sudden grasp at a certain degree of sanity, I feel quite lost. I see people around me studying and I wonder what I got myself into. I guess I don't really have a choice.
Anyway, highlights of the week include watching ouija board with Kaiting and Joshua which was the first time I saw anyone scream in a cinema while attempting to do a solo Mexican wave.
Also dinner in hard rock with prav and ale where we were given a table right in front of the stage where the live band performed. The stares which seemed to come our way was somewhat pressurising but the bigger disappointment came when the band started to play. They had long hair and were armed with electric guitars with huge pedals and amps-hardly the makings of any slow soothing romantic love-song types. So I was kinda hyped as I thought hard rock was gonna live up to its name. But when they started playing.....I remember turning to prav and saying " these are freaking sissies!" as nothing but the love songs my mother listens to came out of those rugged amps. Speaking about mothers, mine went to school today to see the heads. Looks like everything's finalised. I'll just have to accept it. oh well. Maybe after this i can finally sleep.

Quote:"take your pills and you'll be fine. "